epiphany

The moment a dream or fantasy comes down and knocks you almost unconscious.

It is a white flag asking you to take it with you. Surrender and go with it. This feeling of clearer vision and becoming more driven hit me just four hot months ago. There is a fine Line between wanting something and creating it to be something you need. It is the difference between a sheer thought and a tangible lifestyle. Since the day I turned twelve, I have wanted nothing less than to be a resident of the great state of Tennessee. To live a new life. New in a sense of a different experience and to further my experiences, not in any way would I want to forget or run from my previous years, but rather, take them with me. Surrender and take those nineteen years with me into the new experiences ahead. That was my epiphany. I have grown to love, admire, and appreciate Tucson to be more than just a town I grew up in, but that sentimental tie grips me, holds me here. I'm thankful for that grip, but am also thankful I have realized the difference between wanting something, hoping for it, and craving, desiring, and chasing it. Four months ago, approximately, as I was mentally gauging the time frame for my trek through the states to the right of Arizona to ultimately settle in Tennessee I had a divine, intuitive, Christ centered tug, or slap to my face, that I shouldn't be mentally planning this adventure but wholeheartedly attacking it passionately and do it, not only for me, but for the Lord. 

Furthermore, the word 'epiphany' has become such a cliche. Don't you think? It is talked about in every English, writing, or literature class year after year. I think it has become close to a cliche, something overly used or expressed, but regardless, the meaning and slap to the face feeling a grand realization brings to you is the true impact of an epiphany. 

I think I just had an epiphany about the word 'epiphany'!